[video]

[saintedsinner]

-=Ed's been busy outside. Namely, he's been hauling dried, cut grass and placing it into a bin along with other edibles for one pink cow. It's been a long day, and one can tell he's been working hard with the slight burn on his shoulders and the sweat making his hair cling to his skin.=-

There. I think this is a good start.

-=It keeps his mind off things, this kind of work. After the week long deal of feeling other's emotions, Merlin turning crazy and the loss of some key companions here, it's all Ed could do to keep sane. But he won't let it show on this network.=-

Hey, Mustang? You still running around here somewhere or did you decide to go back and give Father what for?

Comments

[Voice]

[lastdragonlord.livejournal.com]

[Pfft, so remember when he said he wasn't going to beg for forgiveness? He can't even look you in the face, Ed.]

I... I'm so sorry for how I behaved the last week. I didn't - it wasn't... I wasn't myself. I just, I.

I'm sorry.

[Well, heck, at least he isn't crying anymore, right?]

[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

-=There's a long, long silence as he contemplates on actually answering him. Should he, or shouldn't he?=-

A lot of people weren't themselves.


-=He's not going to take the risk of someone turning into a FREAK that has knowledge about his automail, either.=-

[Voice]

[lastdragonlord.livejournal.com]

[He won't actually blame you for that choice, Ed, he terrified himself of that every happening again.]

I know. Or, at least, I know now - but that still doesn't excuse what I did. What I said.

I... [Takes a shaky breath.] it won't happen again. I won't let it.

I just. Wanted to apologize, is all.

[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

If it's in your base nature, then you can't guarantee that. The Animus will make it happen.

-=Flat tone, Truth hurts, fucking disappointed.=-

[Voice]

[lastdragonlord.livejournal.com]

T-t-to protect p-people! To-to want to keep t-them safe! Not to. Not to k-keep them like, like pets - I'm not. I don't.

I. I've killed before. I won't deny that. But it has only ever been to protect the ones I love, and I've never taken any enjoyment from it.

I would rather die than become what I did that past week.

[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

-=He'll let him rant for a bit.=-

Actions speak louder than words.

[Voice]

[lastdragonlord.livejournal.com]

...

[Oh, it is so fortunate that Merlin chose not to go to video for this, because he's having a hard enough time controlling his voice to worry about his face as well. James told him not to cry. He's trying.]

I. I'm sorry that you feel that way.

I won't - I won't bother you again.

[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

....Idiot.


-=Not what he meant at all! If you're sorry, do something about it instead of whimpering about it. But Ed was never one to explain such things. Merlin will have to go to Winry or Alphonse for that insight.=-

[Voice]

[lastdragonlord.livejournal.com]

[A strained sort of whimper laugh. Oh, now there's a word he recognizes!]

M-maybe, yeah.

[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

I have a cow to take care of.

[Voice]

[lastdragonlord.livejournal.com]

[Aaaaaaand he's gonna go ahead and turn that PCD off before he starts crying again and Edward gets an even lower opinion of him.]

[Voice]

[al_truism]

Merlin-

[orz]

[Private to Edward//Unhackable]

... we really have to work on your people skills.

[Private//Unhackable]

[saintedsinner]

... My people skills are fine.

[Private//Unhackable]

[al_truism]

I think you made him cry.

[Private//Unhackable]

[saintedsinner]

He was already on his way to crying.

If he wants to whine and blubber about shit that can't be changed instead of just pressing onward, that's not my problem.

[Private//Unhackable]

[al_truism]

Which is what you should have said, rather than something vague about the Animus.

[Sigh.]

He doesn't know you. He came into this already afraid, already hurting, knowing that nobody here has any reason to trust him after what he did. He's been here a month, Ed. He's all alone, away from all of his friends, and Rhode's influence took complete advantage of him, and now he's tryng to deal with the consequences.

He was trying to apologize to you.

[Private//Unhackable]

[saintedsinner]

-=A long, long silence.=-

...

-=Then a huff as he wipes his face=-

He's gotta show a back bone if he's going anywhere near my arm and leg. Haven't seen it yet.

[Private//Unhackable]

[al_truism]

I don't know, Ed. He might cry easily, but it took some courage to come to you. To come to all of us.

You might want to tell him that's what you meant, then.

[Al's not going to. That would be babying Ed.]

[Private//Unhackable]

[saintedsinner]

...

I'll be back later. Going for a walk.

[Private//Unhackable]

[al_truism]

... okay. I'll be here.

[He couldn't have scolded him THAT hard, right? Nah, he's up to something.]

[Private//Unhackable]

[saintedsinner]

Good. See you later.


-=Man has a mission.=-