Voice-To Solve people

[saintedsinner]

It's about goddamn time the jungle left. The humidity was getting to me. I'm lucky I didn't start rusting, dammit.


.... Is Negi back, yet?

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[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

Yes, I do.

-=Because his version of pain is vastly different. And he's not afraid of it.=-

I've been through hell and back. I'll do it again without any hesitation. And if it didn't hurt, then it wasn't worth it. I'll still get up and keep moving, no matter what.

[Voice]

[somethingspecial]

Letting yourself get hurt is different than working for something worth the hurt, because there's a certain point where it isn't worth it anymore.

[Finn. Finn. Finn. Finn.]

[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

I haven't met that point.

[Voice]

[somethingspecial]

[It's disconcerting, because Rachel said the very same thing, in retaliation to Quinn's blunt honesty -- and Rachel honestly doesn't know how she's worth such struggle, especially in a world so impermanent and destructive as Adstringendum.

She chews on her lower lip for a moment, heart lodged in her throat.]

I admire your tenacity.

[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

-=The very fact that Adstringendum is the way it is, is what makes her worth it.=-

The moment you decide you're not worth it is the moment I walk away. It's about time you start remembering what you're worth, because I see it.

[Voice]

[somethingspecial]

I know what I'm worth, thank you very much.

[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

... Fine.

[Voice]

[somethingspecial]

This isn't how much I feel I'm worth. It's about hurting people.

[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

You can't prevent that all the time. You just can't. Pleasing everyone ever is just going to make you miserable. The best you can do is be true to yourself, and hope for the best. If you don't, you'll be nothing but a people pleaser and you'll never go forward.

[Voice]

[somethingspecial]

[She's silent, for a very long moment.]

-- I'm not going to let anyone get in the way of my future ever again.

[It's quiet.]

But that isn't the same as making sure I don't hurt anyone anymore.

[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

-=A long sigh. He sees the consequences in everything. Someone can't be happy unless someone else isn't. It's the balance, the Flow. One can't to anything about it if it's by accident, but to be constantly aware of it?=-

You know what? You're going to hurt someone, regardless. Those are the consequences, and the balance of things. You have to sacrifice one thing in order to gain another. You have no control over that basic truth.

-=He's frustrated, and it's apparent in his voice.=-

I'm tired of arguing around in circles.

[Voice]

[somethingspecial]

I'm tired of always having to hurt someone to be happy.

[It's a frustrated mutter -- and it's selfish, because Rachel knows it's no one's fault, absolutely no one did anything wrong, but it's so fucking frustrating to be trapped in the middle.

Again.]

[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

Fine. If you're interested in persueing... something with me? You let me know. You know where my room is.

That way if you decide not to, you don't have to worry about it. You won't be hurting anyone on this end.

[Voice]

[somethingspecial]

[There's no point in arguing any further, because -- she knows that it's not true. Rachel will hurt someone, in the end. It's just a question of who.]

Right.

[Voice]

[saintedsinner]

-=The difference is that now he's made it his choice.=-

-=There's nothing but static, now.=-